Bleeding Love

Blood on my hands. Fault is of mine. 
I wanted something bold, a color so bright. 
Red was the only thing I could think of. 
I thought of my bleeding heart and all my useless love.

Rachel Hopes


Love is Needed

Boys will be boys.
Girls will be girls.
Aren’t you tired of the stereotypes in this world?
White people are racist.
Black people will rob you.
Do  you think that all of this is true?
If you love Jesus, then you must be self righteous.
If you’re an atheist, then you must be heartless.
All of that is pure nonsense.

What ever happened to just loving your neighbor?
I didn’t know that love required standards.
People don’t want to have to do the labor
and then they ask why they’re prayers haven’t been answered.

Who cares if you don’t believe what I do?
Love is needed and we all know that is true.
There are kids dying and mothers crying
over their babies lying in the streets dead.
We are just sitting here complaining, always hating
while we are safe in our beds.
We’re letting differences come between us.
Where on earth is the love?
There are people out there that love has never touched
because we don’t care enough.
There are people being killed over such stupid stuff.
Nobody’s taking a stand over that but they’ll take a stand for equal love.
We’re so worried about our personal relationships.
We’re not worried about our nations.
That’s nonsense.
The whole world needs love on their side.
Nothing gets accomplished when there is so much hate and pride.
So please when you go out, make someone smile.
It may be small but it’ll make their day worth while.
The world has never seen so much hate.
Is spreading love going to much out of the way?
Is it that hard to show that you care?
Tomorrow, the people you know may not even be there.
So get off your lazy high horse.
You’re no better than anyone.
If love was your only source,
this war of hatred would never have begun.
I’m not asking for very much.
Just please do everything you do in love.


Rachel Hopes

Everyone Deserves Love

Girls have a hard time wrapping their head around the idea of a good man.
They think guys should be perfect but the truth is no man can.
Jesus was the only perfect one who walked the face of the earth.
He was perfection and purely innocence since birth.
So come on how are we suppose to compare them to that?
Even the holiest of saints couldn’t manage that.
So when you get a good guy, don’t let him go.
Cause darling, you’re not perfect you know.

You can be good, and not be perfect.
You can sin, and still be worth it.
Don’t ever think a person doesn’t deserve love.
Cause a long time ago a man gave up his life because he loved you so much.
We have all came short to the glory of God.
Hate should not even be a thought.
So if a Godly man comes your way, don’t shut him out.
Everyone sins; Everyone needs forgiveness. You know what I’m talking about.

Girls might be afraid that they’ll end up getting used.
They have to realize that not everyone wants to leave them abused.
We were told to be silent, we were told to bite our tongue.
We’re so quick to rebel against that, but we can’t even show God’s love.
You can make a stand.
You can fight.
Blood doesn’t have to be shed.
Violence doesn’t make it right.
Disagreements will occur. That’s a matter of fact.
But everyone needs love, and there’s no changing that.

Rachel Hopes

Suicide Through the Cracks: The one the system missed

A must read. Society is so unjust. The world is so cruel, and I believe we need to take a stand.



“You see the giant and the shepherd in the valley and Elah and your eye is drawn to the man with the sword and shield and the glittering armor. But so much of what is beautiful and valuable in the world comes from the shepherd, who has more strength and purpose than we can ever imagine.”
-Malcolm Gladwell

By Cortland Pfeffer       Edited By Irwin Ozborne

I survived a suicide attempt. I also spent years receiving treatment in rehab centers and psychiatric hospitals. However my friend, Joe, did not survive. He spent many years on the streets and in jails before taking his life on February 25, 2010. This is what suicide looks like. This is him after hanging himself.

There is no difference between us, besides our resources and the subsequent treatment we were provided. He grew up in a rough environment including his home, neighborhood, school, friends, and life…

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Light Can’t Be Found

Been crying every night since I was 7 years old
Too scared to be bold
I was drowning in my tears hating myself
I couldn’t get rid of the fears  that I felt
I was anxious, depressed, and insecure
I didn’t even know what I was looking for

Tried to hang myself when i was 11
Earth was hell; I was just trying to get to heaven
Met a boy when i was 12who taught me how to cut
Started then and could never kick it in the butt
Have scars on my wrists and my hips
But i dont blame them cause the words never escaped my lips

People dont get that the knives and fire is not what destroys me
It’s the world and people’s cruelty.
I havent had the best life and its hard to look around
Cause im sometimes consumed in darkness and light cant be found

Rachel Hopes

Death Seems the Easiest Part

Sweet time; it is disappearing way too fast.
We need light; the darkness is so vast.
I am here but I am fading away.
I’m on earth but I may not be at the end of the day.
I see the Sun and the beautiful moon.
I see myself and I see you.
I don’t understand.
I don’t understand the ways of man.
The brutality stabs my heart.
Death seems the easiest part.

Rachel Hopes

Dear Future Child

Dear Future Child,                                                                                                                                                                         July 23,2015

   I know I do not know you yet, but I do know one thing for sure: I love you. I do not know when you will come into my life or who your father will be, but I do know that I will be your mother. I can not promise you by any means that I will be perfect, but I do promise that I will try my best to give you a happy life. I can not promise you that I’ll give you the life you deserve, because sweetheart Earth is not a place for any child and only Heaven can do that. But Heaven is not where I want you to be until God calls you home. I want you with me always. Even now I carry you in my heart. I will make mistakes and will accidentally do things that I should not do because just like you baby, I have to learn from my mistakes. Even at my age, I am still learning. I never want you think that it’s not okay to mess up sometimes, because even the best people in the world still mess up. It is a part of being human, but it will never make me love you less. I have been thinking about you and praying for you since I was a child myself. I look at the world and it breaks my heart because it makes me question if bringing you up in such a place is a good thing, but I know you will be a blessing to this world, especially mine.  I do not know what you look like yet, but I already know you are the most beautiful sight my eyes will ever see. I do not know what your personality is like, but I know being around you will fill my heart with joy. I do not know if you will be healthy, but I do know that I will do anything for you to be healthy and happy. I want you to know that no matter what happens, I will be right by your side. I will never leave you. I could never think of aborting you or putting you up for adoption, because your life is so precious to me. I could never part with such an angel. I will not truly know what love is until I have you in my arms for the first time, to see those beautiful eyes look up at me and to have those precious little hands wrap around my fingers. I would never let anyone harm you in anyway. I will die for you if I need to. You give my life meaning and give me hope in the future. I hope to be the amazing Godly mother you need. I want to be the one you can always come to, and the one who you come crying to when you have your first heart break. I want to cook cookies with you in the middle of the night, and watch old movies with you, and just listen to you talk about whatever you want to talk about. I want to pray with you before you go to bed and help you with whatever  you may need. I just want you to be happy. There is so much evil in this world, but there are so many beautiful things too and I want to show you. I want to show you the beauty God has created such as the sunsets God has painted and the sweet cuddly animals that you’ll beg me to let you pet. I want you to see the beauty in life over the bad. I want you to see the beauty in yourself, because darling you are absolutely ravishing inside and out. Whether you are a boy or girl, you are perfect to me already.  I could never wish for a better son or daughter, because you’re the best it gets. If there is more than one of you, y’all are all equal to me and I love you so much. Never think that there isn’t enough love for you, because I have all the love in the world for each and every one of you. I am thinking about you daily, and I am trying to do what’s best for you. I am scared to death, but you give me strength that I didn’t believe I had. I could never thank you enough for the happiness you give me. It will be an absolute honor to be your mother. Just know that God loves you and that Him and me are always going to be there. No matter what baby, know that I love you.

Your Future Mommy

Rachel Hopes