50 days and 25 school days and counting until the day of graduation. 13 years in school to be pushed out into the real world, and I could never be more ready or afraid. I have papers and finals to worry about, but I am more afraid of what is to come. What happens when I walk out these doors for the last time?
In Jeremiah 29:11, it states, ” ‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘ plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'”
The future is going to come whether it be as a CEO, a missionary, or called home to the Lord. I don’t know what lies ahead, but I do know who holds my future, and I am ever so blessed that it is in the hands of my creator, the One who died and lives for me. Whenever I am downtrodden, I have instilled in me this hope, this light that I am being taken care of. I know I should not worry, so why do I?
“It is human nature.” But I am not just a human, I am God’s child and I can not blame my worries on human nature. I can not sin and say it is human nature just because it is God’s nature to forgive me even when I consistently fail Him. I even sometimes fail to trust Him.
So I make MY OWN plans. “Oh, I’m going to go to this college and go under this program and I’m going to go do these mission trips.” The reality though is that God has every right to and most likely will make those plans do a 360. This life is a gift to me, but not for me. It is for Him.
“Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.” ~ Proverbs 19:21
So, I will be doing a lot of self evaluating and praying. I am going to worry, but I am not going to let it take over my life because Jesus should be in so control of my life that I have none but to say “Jesus, take the wheel.” I will take on this next couple of months as if they were my last, making every moment count. Taking in those dear faces I may never see again. Saying thank you to the teachers, even the ones I do not agree with, because they helped me become who I am. Most students spend more time with teachers than they do with parents, so I know that teachers have a huge impact on who we are. This is a chapter that is ending, the ending of my childhood. So now I go on to bigger and better things, not to say this wasn’t good but there is a frontier of bigger learning waiting.
And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. – Romans 8:28
“Refuse to let the world corrupt you.” We live in a world full of heartache and pain where people are abusing alcohol and drugs to fill the void of emptiness inside themselves. There is something bigger and more life changing than anything else that can fill that void: love. As human beings we have a need to give and receive love but more times than not we let the hatred of the world seep into us instead of the love inside of us to seep out.
When I was in Memphis, Tennessee doing mission work, I met a little boy around 7 years of age and he told me that there are more bad than good people and that a person can never change. My heart shattered a little bit in that moment, but I made the realization that a lot of people think that way, even the people who need to change. We are our biggest enemy. We keep ourselves from opportunities, necessary changes, and even love.
I have always had a heart for helping other humans and animals. To care for and to love others is one of my main purposes in life. I am planning to major in Social Work and eventually go overseas. My dream is to go to Africa to help in villages that do not even have clean water. However, I can not and will not limit myself to one city, one state, or even one country. I want to show anyone and everyone that there is love and hope. I want to find the people who are so filled with hate all they see is darkness, so I can come in and show them a better way.
When I help others, whether it be loving on children in Memphis or writing articles for my town’s website, I feel complete. I know I have a purpose in life, and it is to help others. I am not the best writer, but I write in sincerity. God bless.