50 days and 25 school days and counting until the day of graduation. 13 years in school to be pushed out into the real world, and I could never be more ready or afraid. I have papers and finals to worry about, but I am more afraid of what is to come. What happens when I walk out these doors for the last time?
In Jeremiah 29:11, it states, ” ‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘ plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'”
The future is going to come whether it be as a CEO, a missionary, or called home to the Lord. I don’t know what lies ahead, but I do know who holds my future, and I am ever so blessed that it is in the hands of my creator, the One who died and lives for me. Whenever I am downtrodden, I have instilled in me this hope, this light that I am being taken care of. I know I should not worry, so why do I?
“It is human nature.” But I am not just a human, I am God’s child and I can not blame my worries on human nature. I can not sin and say it is human nature just because it is God’s nature to forgive me even when I consistently fail Him. I even sometimes fail to trust Him.
So I make MY OWN plans. “Oh, I’m going to go to this college and go under this program and I’m going to go do these mission trips.” The reality though is that God has every right to and most likely will make those plans do a 360. This life is a gift to me, but not for me. It is for Him.
“Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.” ~ Proverbs 19:21
So, I will be doing a lot of self evaluating and praying. I am going to worry, but I am not going to let it take over my life because Jesus should be in so control of my life that I have none but to say “Jesus, take the wheel.” I will take on this next couple of months as if they were my last, making every moment count. Taking in those dear faces I may never see again. Saying thank you to the teachers, even the ones I do not agree with, because they helped me become who I am. Most students spend more time with teachers than they do with parents, so I know that teachers have a huge impact on who we are. This is a chapter that is ending, the ending of my childhood. So now I go on to bigger and better things, not to say this wasn’t good but there is a frontier of bigger learning waiting.
And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. – Romans 8:28