Suicide Through the Cracks: The one the system missed

A must read. Society is so unjust. The world is so cruel, and I believe we need to take a stand.



“You see the giant and the shepherd in the valley and Elah and your eye is drawn to the man with the sword and shield and the glittering armor. But so much of what is beautiful and valuable in the world comes from the shepherd, who has more strength and purpose than we can ever imagine.”
-Malcolm Gladwell

By Cortland Pfeffer       Edited By Irwin Ozborne

I survived a suicide attempt. I also spent years receiving treatment in rehab centers and psychiatric hospitals. However my friend, Joe, did not survive. He spent many years on the streets and in jails before taking his life on February 25, 2010. This is what suicide looks like. This is him after hanging himself.

There is no difference between us, besides our resources and the subsequent treatment we were provided. He grew up in a rough environment including his home, neighborhood, school, friends, and life…

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Closing the book

This is remarkable.


You get married and you think this is the man you will spend the rest of your life with.

Then life happens.

You separate, and for the next three years you don’t see him. You don’t hear his voice. The soft lilt in his Rs. You don’t see him ruffled up in the morning before he puts on his armour to face the world. You don’t smell him in the corridor before you leave the house. You don’t see his name pop up on your phone. You don’t know what song he belts out as he drives with the window down and Bluetooth earpiece on. You don’t know what person he thinks is a complete muppet. You don’t hear the word muppet anymore. You never have to put the toilet seat down.

You begin to wonder if you dreamed the whole thing up.

The waves now wash over you once every…

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Stars May Fall

The stars may fall, but you are my light. In all, I’ll not go down without a fight. Love can not be defeated. Even after you’re gone, the wound is still bleeding. I remember your smile, and the way your eyes would light up. That laugh, and the embrace of your love. Whereever you are, I will follow. Darling, I love you more than you’ll ever know

Rachel Hopes

Teen Depression: What’s The Big Deal?

  “Depression: You either win or die trying.”


As a teen battling with depression myself, I have to say suicide has been a thought more than once. Why? I can be in a crowd of people and still feel alone. Things get hard, harder than they should be. I sometimes wander why people say teenagers are just children, because in my life, I have to deal with adult problems. I also know other teens do too. I have talked to strangers my own age, and most of them are depressed. It is sad that “kids” have to go through so much, and a lot of it is because of selfish adults. No one seems to reach out to us and help us figure out things. We have to act like adults and handle the situation ourselves, but we get treated like children. We make mistakes. Our lives are trial and error. We find out what makes us happy and we try to stick with it, whether it is a person, thing, or hobby. Yeah, we make mistakes, but why can adults make mistakes and we can not? I make mistakes, and I am not 18. So what? I’m human. I sin. Everybody does. God even said so. I believe in God. I am saved, but I am still depressed. My youth pastor at my Wednesday church says depression is self pity, and to be honest, I wanted to smack him over that statement. Depression is a battle and I am going to God to help me, but it is not something that can be fixed over night. Just like with other teenagers. We still have hope, and that is the only reason we’re alive. It is like Pandora’s box. At the bottom, through everything, there was hope. I try to go on anonymous websites helping teens with depression… There are so many problems and struggles in the world of today. It is heartbreaking to see “children” wanting to end their life. It is not fair! If it does not make you wanna scream, then I do not know what will. The world is fading away into sadness and despair, and I realize that it WILL end. However, that knowledge will not stop me. I ask everyone to stand up and be bold. Everyday try to make someone smile. Smile more. Do not go to bed crying yourself to sleep, because darling, you do NOT deserve that. You are worth more than you will ever know. If anyone ever needs anything, contact me! Depression is a serious thing, and I want to help. Won’t you too? 

Rachel Hopes

Rachel Hopes